Ashleymf22

Went for a walk tonight and it went pretty well. My shoes suck but I know if I keep it up Josh will buy new ones for me. Cause I mentioned that they suck when I got home and my ankles were killing me. Now I just need to get better songs downloaded on my MP3 player. Some of them are okay and some are sad and I don’t want that when I am walking. Defently going to do it tomorrow cause it is a good high for me!! Good night to all!!  ~Ashley~

Friday night I went to my towns little Janesville days. Which is pretty much a beer fest and that is it but anyways met some old friends that I went to school with by the way that was only 7 years ago. But I don’t like going back and being fat. I don’t know what is up  with my why I have no self control and yet my sister has enough for both of us. It just SUCKS. I think every morning okay I can do this and then I mess up then it is all over. I know I can do it is did it 2 years ago I lost about 30 pounds. I also was going through a divorce and trying to date again. It’s not like I don’t have time I am just lazy no self motavation what so ever. Although now I have realized that my bf looks at other girls and it is not the fat ones that he looks at it is the skinny ones. He says I look fine but I know that is a load of crap. Why do guys do that always look at other girls??? Are you not happy with who you have or are you thinking I wish I had her?? Well better go get dinner started before the kids and bf get home talk to you all later!!!   ~Ashley~

So the race between Josh and I is going well, but I just feel so down in the dumps these days. Many people have told me to go to the dr. for depression but I have no insurance and all the medicine I gave resurched can cause weight gain, Tha is half the reason I am depressed. If anyone has any suggestions let me know! Thanks and have a good week!!

Sorry I haven’t been on lately the BF likes to hog the computer setting up web sites. I have been doing okay. Lots of water and fruit. Josh(BF) have a compition going on who can lose the most in 4 weeks. He wants $50 if he wins and I want a bra from Victoria Secrets. I am doing okay so far! Well better go baby wants to go to bed. She hasn’t slept much today!! TT4n

Holy cow!! I took a alli pill this morning,I have been on it for a week now, and boy did I get some side effects. I had egg whites with a little bit of salsa, 2 pieces of wheat toaste, one with a little bit of light butter and the other with peanut butter, and a glass of oj that is fat free and 50 calories and with in a half hour I was on the toilet and have been on it twice and on it for about 10 mins each time. So I guess it does do something to ya. It must take a week or so to get into your system and do what it needs to do!! How is everyone else doing on it so far??